The seeds of this blog came about in the fall of 2011, when I popped on the Femme Domme message board, MaxFisch.com a few months after retiring from being a prodomme. It was raining and I was stuck inside and maybe people were talking about me. (I never said I wasn't a narcissist.) A few post came up where I wanted so badly to say how it really was/is. It came out of the blue, that after 10 years of always having to put a positive spin on everything, there would be no professional repercussions if I simply spoke frankly.
Things started pouring out of me. I had all these stories to tell and a bit of distance from the scene. I always tried to present myself honestly and candidly, but not really. If it didn't feed into the fantasy that I was a fabulous diva, I didn't talk about it. Public feuds might be good for stirring people up, but I knew would always hinder the longevity of a career. Putting this side to the story as why session prices are as they are would have been an open invitation to every schmoe out there to harass me about my current session price. I could talk about all this stuff now.
For me, this is a free writing exercise, me flushing out stories, ideas and philosophies. I have wonderful friends here in Barcelona, but none that could really understand these stories. Quite frankly I like being able to tell the stories to someone rather than keep everything in a journal/diary. That's pretty much perfect for the blog format. It's only a free writing exercise, the electronic equivalent of me sitting on Hans' Home for Wayward Fetish Divas in my rocking chair rambling about the Naughty Aught-ys in New York. I'm not trying to get at anyone; don't flatter yourself.
I did put a link to my phone session page as a bit of an after thought. I'm always up to try some new technology/marketing/whatnot. If I get a call here or there that means I can treat myself to a bocadillo de queso y cafe con leché, sitting at a cafe in front of Mercat Barceloneta and watch the Catalan codgers putter about the square. It's my absolute favorite thing in the whole world to do right now, a simple pleasure that gives me an enormous sense of well being. I put up an Amazon wish list, because why, the hell, not?
Agreed there are a lot of negative things posted here, but those are the stories that I didn't get to tell. (See aforementioned spin of being a fabulous diva.) I do mention names of people simply to round the writing and make it more concrete. Mostly if I have something negative to say about someone I exclude his or her name, with some exceptions. If I use your name and it upsets you, just tell me and I'll remove it, no sweat.
I'm quite pleased with the response to this blog--it's been much larger than I ever imagined already. I find it a bit unfortunate that I can't put the most interesting stories I have to tell in my regular writing portfolio, but this is an amazing outlet for me. I write because I have to--it's what I do. It's nice to be read, though.
Be good to yourselves,
M
Things started pouring out of me. I had all these stories to tell and a bit of distance from the scene. I always tried to present myself honestly and candidly, but not really. If it didn't feed into the fantasy that I was a fabulous diva, I didn't talk about it. Public feuds might be good for stirring people up, but I knew would always hinder the longevity of a career. Putting this side to the story as why session prices are as they are would have been an open invitation to every schmoe out there to harass me about my current session price. I could talk about all this stuff now.
For me, this is a free writing exercise, me flushing out stories, ideas and philosophies. I have wonderful friends here in Barcelona, but none that could really understand these stories. Quite frankly I like being able to tell the stories to someone rather than keep everything in a journal/diary. That's pretty much perfect for the blog format. It's only a free writing exercise, the electronic equivalent of me sitting on Hans' Home for Wayward Fetish Divas in my rocking chair rambling about the Naughty Aught-ys in New York. I'm not trying to get at anyone; don't flatter yourself.
I did put a link to my phone session page as a bit of an after thought. I'm always up to try some new technology/marketing/whatnot. If I get a call here or there that means I can treat myself to a bocadillo de queso y cafe con leché, sitting at a cafe in front of Mercat Barceloneta and watch the Catalan codgers putter about the square. It's my absolute favorite thing in the whole world to do right now, a simple pleasure that gives me an enormous sense of well being. I put up an Amazon wish list, because why, the hell, not?
Agreed there are a lot of negative things posted here, but those are the stories that I didn't get to tell. (See aforementioned spin of being a fabulous diva.) I do mention names of people simply to round the writing and make it more concrete. Mostly if I have something negative to say about someone I exclude his or her name, with some exceptions. If I use your name and it upsets you, just tell me and I'll remove it, no sweat.
I'm quite pleased with the response to this blog--it's been much larger than I ever imagined already. I find it a bit unfortunate that I can't put the most interesting stories I have to tell in my regular writing portfolio, but this is an amazing outlet for me. I write because I have to--it's what I do. It's nice to be read, though.
Be good to yourselves,
M
Hello, Domina M!
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to drop a line and wish you good luck with the blog. I regret never playing with you in person, though I see that, happily, there are still ways to worship from afar.
For what its worth, I think you write extraordinarily well, and am looking forward to keeping up with this blog. Your intelligence, humor, and wit are what separates you from the pack, if you don't mind me saying, and it is very generous of you to continue to share that with your... fans? devotees?
The very best of luck to you in this new phase. I'm sure it'll be a blast!
I think you're fantastic.
All the best!
connor
Thank you, Connor. It's nice to know that people enjoy my blog. I certainly enjoy writing it.
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